Boy oh Boy ... can my life get any crappier at the moment ???
I mean really I wake up every day trying to be positive, trying really hard to think it's gonna get better ... It's quite obvious I'm either a) not trying hard enough b) not positive enough c) really should not be here or d) seriously pissed someone off in a previous life !!!
I think I'm going for all 4 ...
Had a hectically usually busy last 3 weeks ... Kelsey and exams ... short days ... long studying ... constant fighting with him to study ... I think that has taken a lot out of me ...
Hasn't helped that I started with a cold 2 weeks ago and no matter what I take nothings budging it ... mind you if I could get just 1 decent nights sleep ... maybe that would help get rid of the cold and then maybe if I felt better things would start to look better and then .....
Mind you the weather we're having at the moment isn't helping either ... yesterday we had a gale force storm second to none !!! Never been heard of before ... rain in WINTER ... not here in SA!!! Usually our summers are wet and the winters are dry ... apparently there is snow on the Berg ... Kelsey's up there at the moment on his school trip so I just hope he's keeping warm ... he argued with me about taking a duvet and a sleeping bag ... when will these kids realise that MUM KNOWS BETTER !!!
Why no sleep??? Because someone who is never here .... deemed in necessary for SONshine to get a puppy !!! However SONshine wants nothing to do with damned puppy ... who by the way is now over 6 months old !!! ... doesn't sleep and when she does ... has to sleep on ME !!! cos she's cold ... she is smooth haired with very little fur !!! and trust me when she fights her way under the duvet covers she is bloody freezing ... NOW all of that added to the fact that I am a light sleeper and struggle to get to sleep !!! Do I need to say anymore ???
(For example: last night she had me up 7 times !!! she sits next to the bed and cries and cries and cries till I can't take the bloody noise any more ... I get up let her out and she runs around the dark bloody freezing cold garden and muggins here has to sit and wait for her to come back to the door ... no point leaving her out there cos she'll scratch and bang on the door till she wakes the whole bloody complex ... and I wouldn't get any sleep any way ... she comes back in and bang an hour and a half later she's at it again !!! Indie ... the big dog just lies there and looks at the 2 of us ... so it's not like there's something in the garden disturbing the DOGS ... it's just this stooopid fecking puppy !!!)
And yes ... it is getting very close to a trip to a certain place ... 2 go in ... 1 comes out !!!
Been crazy busy with Rugby every weekend ... so don't even get a break at the weekends ... and this last week Kelsey got tackled quite badly and now he's 'injured' and been benched for this coming Saturdays game.... (yay ..oh no lie in for us cos I'm supposed to be helping out in the catering van ... and as Captain he is expected to be on the bench supporting his team !!!)
Had him at the Docs on Tuesday ... couldn't take him Monday ... see why in next chapter !!! and the Doc wants him to have an ultra-sound on his thigh in case he has TORN the thigh muscle !!! Bad news for him if he has he'll not be playing rugby for at least the next 6 weeks !!! BUT can't take him for the ultra-sound as he's away with the school on a trip for the next 3 days ... doc wants to see him again on Friday when he's back to see if the swelling has gone down...
AND why could I not take him to docs on MONDAY ... oh shock! horror! surprise! ... booked MY CAR in for its service and IT decided to give the mechanics the usual SHIT that it always does ... can't get parts, can't find the problem ... fix 1 then something else goes wrong etc.etc.etc. AND yet again I've sat without transport for 2days !!!!
And that is the 1 thing you can not have here in SA ... be without transport ... I'm sure I have mentioned on more than 1 occasion there's no such thing as public transport and you can't exactly WALK to places here !!! And I have a support structure that I can call upon to help me out ... not like the hubby is coming home on a night after work with a spare car to fetch and carry the child or anything !!!
As I sit here writing this I have to ask myself so many times WHY !!!
The biggest and 1st has to be :
Why did we even come here in the 1st place?
Why did we bring that stupid car here?
Why did they get that fecking puppy?
NO I'm not in the happiest place right now ... haven't been in that happy place for quite some time if the truth be known ...
So very sorry people but this is MY BLOG and if I want to rant and rave on it I will ... maybe I'll feel a bit better once I've put all this crap 'out there' !!!
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